When I first saw you I was afraid to talk to you, even to say 'Hi'. 
All I could think of is how beautiful this girl is. 
I saw you and the only thing could come out my mouth is "you cute!" 
I was so afraid to even look at you 
When you smiled, oh my god when you smiled, I wanted to run cause I knew if I stayed I would fall in love with that smile.
I couldn't move I was paralyzed by your scent, it could be my brain playing tricks on me but you smelled like honey covered chocolate waffle, no you smelled like heaven, like literal biblical heave. 
My whole body shook at that moment 
I was terrified of talking at all or move even an inch, I was afraid I would say or do something so stupid I'd fuck up everything up.
I was so afraid that I did the most idiotic thing, I just stared at you and smiled, and spend the whole night failing at Life and failing miserably at staring at you unnoticeably.
I was afraid to ask about you, to look you up.


I was afraid to find you, 

I was afraid to know you because I knew If I hear your voice again,
Smell Ur scent again,
See that smile again,
I won't be able to stop myself from kissing you.
I looked you up, I found you, I talked to you...
I was so afraid to meet you.
I planned every second to the second,
I was afraid to mess things up, to jump too fast too strong, to scare you away.
But I couldn't stop myself I believed I Always fuck things up in the end anyway am an unlucky idiot, I thought Fuck it, am gonna be painfully honest from the second I see your eyes, I said am gonna show you everything, tell you everything, the bad, the good and the ugly.
I was afraid, hell. I was fucking terrified, but a voice in my head told me to go for it and give her the best I could be and show her the real me.
I thought I'd go old school, to make you dinner on candlelight and wine put some background blues and just talk to you all night long telling you the worst and the best parts of me, hoping my fears are real, the real me suck and you would run because I always ruin everything.
I was afraid to be right.
I love to be right but I really wanted to be wrong.

I did go old school, 
I did make you dinner, well late and I made you wait, 
I did get wine, and it tasted like shit,  
I did get candles and forgot to light 'em or even put them on the table.
I was afraid the dinner would suck and you'll know I suck too.
When u ate, when you ate it all and smiled, my world is complete.
If I could stop time I would have lived in that moment as long as I can breathe.

We talked and I was so afraid to lose your interest, so I never stopped talking, I talked and talked and talk till I couldn't breathe, the look in your eyes when you heard my stories, is the dream of every storyteller every speaker and performer the look you know you made it.
I kept on talking scared to death and full of hope.
Then you kissed me, out of sudden you kissed me, my heart stopped.
I could die now I could die in peace

I tasted your soul, I felt your heart beat, and mine started to beat like it's the first time it beats, like it beats on the music of your soul.
I felt like I just kissed an angel, I felt complete.
That's when I knew 
I knew I fell in love with you 
I knew, and I knew I just signed my death warrant.
I knew that if you leave I won't survive.
I knew you're my end.
I wanted to run, I wanted to run away before it's too late
But it was too late, and if am to die I'd die knowing I know what love is.
So I hugged you and  wanted to die in your arms, you took my head looked in my eyes and kissed me, 
I knew if am to live, am gonna live for you.
I was so afraid of Everything and I didn't care

You slept in my arms and it felt like you're the missing part of me
You're the lost piece.
I was so afraid, it's only been days and it's going too fast, jumping stages, fuckin up.
I was afraid to talk to you and you'd think I don't want you that much, 
I do want you more than you could imagine, 
I was so afraid that I didn't do anything.
-We drove us too fast we almost hit a wall

And thank the heavens you're a good driver, you slowed down and simply avoid it.-
You talked to me in your most honest innocent way.
You scared the shit out of me, at the same time assured me that we're perfect.
I was afraid but am not afraid to be with you.
Am not afraid to talk to you 
To smell you
To see your smile and look in your eyes
Am not afraid of anything at all
But am terrified of losing you
And am not afraid to be me with you.
I want you to be sure of this, I would do absolutely anything to make you and keep happy for as long as the sunburn and the moon rise
I would die a happy man if you'd live a happy girl.
I was afraid but not ANYMORE.

-A Letter To Moonlight.